Weighty Wednesday

Good first day of the month! Today is September 1, 2010, the first day of  the 30 day Self -Love journey, I am so excited to embark on this with Tina and all of her lovely readers. I recently began a self -love journey (2 years ago) when I returned to church and was introduced to an entirely different (and I feel more accurate) description of God's relationship with humans.  The first days discussion was involving confidence, what a great  topic because with out this component it is so difficult to excel at any action.  Confidence really helps give you the foundation to take on challenges in your life.

Meditating on Tina's post on confidence reminded me that the confidence that I have gained was not achieved by a dramatic weight loss, but rather came from the knowledge that God loved me and has given me the ability to overcome difficult situations in my life. With this reminder I did something that I did not want to do, but have decided it is important to continue even though I hate it.

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This little girl is so much cuter than me getting on a scale;)

I have stopped weighing myself  over the summer, because I am no longer worried about the number on the scale but rather how my clothing fits and how I am feeling. I am sick of basing my worth on a number that doesn't encompass all of who I am.  This is why I have given up my scale (my grandma has it in her bedroom and I have asked her to stop me if I start asking to weigh myself.)  Well there is another reason that I gave up my scale is because I start obsessing over what my weight is and will  step on it 10 times a day and then beat myself up for eating something, even if that something is a whole healthy food.

None of this discussion about scales probably makes sense, but it will.

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So this morning I made a decision that I needed to weigh myself, to have an idea of what I weigh and to keep track of how my body is reacting to running, aerobics and yoga. I will weigh myself on the first and 15th. The second reason that I am doing this is because I recently started taking a supplement to assist in thyroid health and I wanted to keep track of my weight for this purpose.

I found though that I was stressing about stepping back o the scale and lacking  the confidence to step on the scale worrying that it would yet again send me into a downward spiral and a binge of sugary, gluten filled foods. But after reading Tina's post I remembered what I have so easily forgot. The confidence that I have has never come from the scale I step on, but rather from God and the person that he has made me.  So today when I stepped on the scale it was just a number. A starting number to document a new supplement I am taking and to insure that when eating this whole food diet I am only nourishing my body.  I may find in a few months that I do need to weigh myself daily (I pray I don't because this just added unneeded stress to my day) to ensure that I am eating to sustain my body and not to cover pain or eating for pure pleasure of eating. This is a new concept for me, but I have been enjoying  eating organic whole foods and having fruit for deserts. God really did create fabulous foods for us to sustain our life with.

Off to do some Yoga, hope that all is well with everyone out there and that you will join in with Tina's 30 days of Self -Love. (The button is to the right and links at the top of this post)